I'm working later at 2pm. So tts the reason why i can sleep alil late today. Anyway my off day spent at home during the day, karaoke-ing with my dearest family and also cleaning up my messy room. I'm telling you this, im seriously making full used of my off day. At night went out to have dinner at mcs & study at the same time. Manage to mug a few chap. Maybe next week meeting fatin for revision. At the same time, i need Connie to guide me. I swear. My lecturer sucks big time. Lucky her she gt a better lecturer. Better notes to take down. I need her to share notes with me. I'm seriously nervous now tt its alrd January.

Anyway while blogging i'm listening to Ft Island song called Love Sick. Go and read the english romanization. Its sad.. okay random.. I shall make this blog entry simple and short one. I neeeda rest now. Enjoy working everyone n also refering tt to myself. i should enjoy doing closing later.

So long, goodnight. Sweet dreams to you!

rained @ 1:29 AM

Tmr off finallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! gonna rest the whole day at home. and at night merambu. hahhaha.. no la.. still needa study ok? exams coming! speaking of which i still have not yet paid for my exams fee.. i have no time to go down to sch. How i wished i can ask for transfer so tt its abit nearer to my sch. nw im practically working everyday except saturday.

So far working life has kept me alil bz.. i think too bz to even think of anything. I hope i will start planning my own schedule next week. I need to be organised and set a side some time for my studies too.. i cant be working n neglect my studies right? please remind me to make my own schedule. First step done; I already requested for morning shift.. so that i can still study at night. i simply cant study in e day.. Waking up in the Morning will never happened unless i gotta go to work.. i guess i'll be sleeping instead of studying. I hope they somehow undstand my position n be flexible alil with me. I must say i love my job now.. thanks to my dear friend who recommended me in.. Now i just need someone to work with me.. someone who i can clique with.. someone who can sing along with me.. Unfortunately she will be leaving tmr. I'm kinda sad cos i can already clique so well with her n that now she's leaving me this fast! Oh man.. working time is gonna be very long without having her arnd... Anyway thanks to her mouth... i almost died there when she blurt it out.. seriously i wasnt prepared cos i didnt expect it to come cos by the time i wanna stop her its alrd too late... i shall update Sheryl about the news tmr. i bet she gonna laugh when she heard it cos she's also part of the thing. But now that i already know, really.. thnks ladies for your help (: appreciate it much.

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rained @ 1:20 AM

I'm sorry if i was being an ignorant.. You just dont know yet, i cant forced myself to know u better. . I just cant. I dont wanna lie to myself, my feelings. its just not right.. give me time..

Why do i have to feel this way? i'm single, im free to talk to anyone i want. but why didnt i? why cant i?

Is it because i think that all guys are the same? can i stop thinking that way?

Now im confused. So can u tell me hw u feel??

rained @ 2:58 AM

I choose to remain single for nw. No one can stop me. Simply because i have no heart for guys right now. Basically im someone who dont fall in love easily cos i know once im in love, i'll be really devoted. I dont wanna make tt same mistake anymore. Enough of the past. Let my first experience be the last. It has taught me many things n I dont want history to repeat itself. Firstly, i need to love myself more thn i love others. i must say.. maybe it will take years for me to get to know someone. Hate going thru that process again. Anyway i'm fine on my own. Pretty much enjoying my singlehood moment. though i have to admit, i feel lonely at times. but i tell myself that it wont bring me down. After all, I used to be single bfore and now im going thru tt again. ALL it take is time for me to get used to it. I'll stand on my two feet now. Leaving the past behind. In fact, i realised i felt much better. i dont cry like i used to. I no longer haf tt feeling. just tt sometimes memories flashes by.. but it doesnt really affect me that much now. its the past. im learning to accept n let it go. With my family n friends supporting me, Im happy with the way i am. Single but not necessary available.

For now, let time heals everything. seriously, im in no mood to date around. Thats the reason why i dont reply sms-es; Malas nak layan. Yes, I know im such an ignorant. Exams is just around the corner. Im gonna do it well this time.. study, work, study,work.. and make myself bzzzz thats all. People say to move on is to have someone else. it might be true even if we try to deny. For me, let it all come naturally. He will come one day. Fate is always there just tt i dont know who im fated with. So yeah, just let it be..

rained @ 5:24 PM

Aunty Nurul & Syaurah ((:

OK, i reaalllllllllllyy gotta sleep now.

blog again later! love!

rained @ 7:17 AM